I'm Sorry for Disappearing. I've Been in the Battle

I owe you an apology and an explanation.

I haven’t written here in over a year. I promised you resources that I haven’t yet delivered.

I’m sorry.

Let me be real.

I have been in the anxiety battle. And, something had to give. Circumstances, anxiety, and believing the lies of the enemy kept me away. And for that, I greatly apologize. 

I also had a lot to learn, pride to repent of, and work Jesus needed to do — is still doing — in my heart and life.

When I started this blog, I was in a great season. It was the best my anxiety had ever been, things were going great, and God was clearly calling me to do this ministry thing.

I thought I had things all figured out. I thought I had the anxiety under control and that it would never get bad again. Boy, was I wrong.

A car accident, my nana getting sick and passing away, striving to do ministry in my own power, and the lies of the enemy all worked together to spin up the anxiety

But, there is good news!

What the enemy plans for evil, God uses for good. “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives” (Genesis 50:20).

Over the past nine months I have been seeing a counselor. I have had great community with wonderful people speaking into my life. And I have gotten closer to Jesus. 

I have learned, and am still learning, a lot more about anxiety — both from a biological and spiritual perspective. And I can’t wait to share it with you.

I come to you as someone who is in this battle with you. I hope we can learn from, support, and encourage each other.